Very intimate diaries  7

Sometimes to write asks me no particular effort; everything flows, regardless of the quality and quantity.

When I'm happy I reward myself by eating comfort food.

When I’m not happy, I let steam off by eating comfort food.
What’s a vicious circle yet...?



I don’t flipping care about so many things!



My new obsessive ideas are often old obsessive ideas with new makeup, new clothes and a new hairdo.



I decided that luck existed. Bonne chance!



My initial “sense of urgency” has been gradually transformed into despair.



I’m endowed with strength, power and an iron discipline that allows me to build... and destroy.



I guess I have the friends I deserve.



I need to unravel my negative patterns stitch by stitch before being able to start thinking knitting it back positive.



I try to stuff myself with my life’s tools on and on.



Many of my negative life routines were positive at first.



I’ve been questing for so long that I don’t know what I’m looking for anymore.

I am and I already have all I want without knowing it, without seeing it.

This n’ that  7

Go directly from the soul’s wound to art...

The fear I have is future failures because they’ll surely be.
So??

I don’t want my life’s tools become "plasters on a wooden leg."

I dream of having an epiphany.

If I could see my future, I think I would stop living.

My feelings are often sawtooth: I like it, then I don’t like it, then I like it, then I don’t like it, etc.

There’s gesture and "non-gesture".

I can be very superficial sometimes.

Part of me believes that to be alive and well... I have to feel discomfort.

I "bought" a way of living and doing which doesn’t belong to me.

To love deeply one’s work is a reward every day.

I'm obsessed with my craving to create.
I’m obsessed with my craving for freedom.
I'm obsessed with my craving for truth.

This n' that 3

Emend my habit, when I'm trying to guess what the other one feels… while he speaks!

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When I have a shock, I always want to return to the state where I was feeling good.

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My defects:
1) Anxious 2) Timid 3) Lazy 4) Fearful 5) Stubborn 6) Chaotic 7) Pouty

8) Perfectionist 9) Obsessive 10) Untamed 11) Shy

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A son asks her mother: What’s death?
The mother answers: It’s like going to sleep and never waking up.
The boy reply: I shall never die; you wake me up every morning at 7!

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I was born fists closed, and I will die hands open...